My first breakthrough with self-guided meditation

A casual mention of my self-guided meditation practice always generates a lot of questions from my friends: What exactly do you do? Do you feel any benefits? How do you keep yourself from thinking about different things?

After sharing my experience with a few friends, I decided to write about it here.

Why I prefer meditating alone

I’d definitely call myself a beginner, although I now feel very comfortable meditating. I’ve been to a few meditation centers around where I live, but at this stage, I prefer meditating alone. I can freely change my position or move around without feeling socially conscious, listen to meditation music that fits my mood at the time, and wear whatever I want, all of which helps me feel more relaxed.

How I meditate (step by step)

I don’t have a specific way of practicing meditation such as rhythmic breathing or transcendental meditation. I generally concentrate on my breath and raise my awareness of my physical state and surroundings in a sitting posture.

Here’s what I usually do:

I try to meditate every morning and evening, but I won’t stress about it if I skip it. I turn the bedroom light off, let the natural light enter the room through my sheer curtains, or if it’s dark out, turn my lamp on or light a candle. I then light an incense stick.

I sit on my exercise mat, and put on meditation music, such as this one below:

I set a timer for 20 minutes when meditating in the morning before work, but not at night.

I’ll find a posture so that I am stable and my weight is chiefly distributed among three points- my butt and two knees-which I think is a common practice among people that meditate. I sometimes sit against the wall when my shoulders and back do not feel stable.

I gaze at a point in front of me about five feet away.

Then, I take in a deep breath through my nose, pause for a second, and then breathe out through my mouth. I try not to think about other things by focusing on my breathing and my body. For example, I am immersed in the sensation of the air from my breath against my arms when I breathe out. If I’m sitting against the wall, I’ll notice how that makes my back feel. I’ll make a conscious observation of the temperature in my room, and how that makes me feel. I’ll hear a sound outside the window, and take in the experience. When I hear the sound of the singing bowls in my meditation music, I let the sound vibrate through my head, and sometimes throughout my body.

When I realize I’m distracted with different thoughts, sometimes I let myself indulge in them so that I can bore myself and move on, and sometimes I’ll gently remind myself to focus on my breath.

Being conscious of my surroundings in this tranquil environment makes me feel fully alive.

The purpose of meditation

One last thing I want to add before getting to my meditation breakthrough experience: I’ve seen forums where people ask others about how to reach enlightenment through meditation. I’ve also seen online courses that promise enlightenment, peak performance, or spiritual mastery in exchange for thousands of dollars.

While I’ve never taken any paid classes (I’ve been to a few meditation centers and made small donations), I’m skeptical of a lot of such claims and I wonder about people that practice meditation wanting to experience an out-of-the-world sensation. Although yes, I’ve experience a major breakthrough, and I’m sure others have experienced even more intense breakthroughs, my main purpose is to have a moment where I fully indulge in my existence, drop all baggage that I’m carrying, and take a breather. If you’re one of those that are frustrated with your meditation practice, I recommend seeking pleasure in mindfulness before seeking a miracle.

My first breakthrough with meditation

After a couple of months of regular meditation, one evening, I was meditating in my room, when a curious thing happened. I decided to turn my head to look at my mirrored wardrobe. My own reflection looked unfamiliar for the first time in my life. I felt the way I normally do when looking at a stranger walking down the street; it was a neutral observation, if that makes sense. I didn’t feel any emotion; I just acknowledged the presence.

That’s when I had an epiphany:

My body is just a shell of my consciousness. My face and body are projections of my being, like an avatar.

I had come upon Plato and Descartes’s mind/body dualism theories in my high school philosophy class, but this was the first time my physical body felt like a second half of myself. Right then, outside the window, I heard the sound of a neighbor talking to someone, and it felt remarkable that I had the ability to hear. Everything I took for granted seemed like such a gift; I am able-bodied and there are so many possibilities and so many things I have yet to discover.

What an intense moment. I took a few more deep breaths, and then got ready to meet a friend at a local bar.

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6 thoughts on “My first breakthrough with self-guided meditation”

  1. Wow, what an experience! Did that scare you? I still haven’t properly mastered meditation yet. I’ve tried listening to calming music to help me meditate, if my mind isn’t too noisy and buzzing with thoughts, I end up falling asleep.

    So maybe like yourself, I’ll try and focus on my breathing.

    • Rochelle- It wasn’t scary at all. I felt calm and happy to be alive.

      It’s ok if your mind wanders. It happens to everyone. Take a step back and observe your thoughts arise and disappear just like you would observe your breath.

  2. I discovered the power of meditation this year. I was going through a lot of stuff and I just felt overwhelmed all the time. So I started praying, exercising, and mediating. Best decisions I ever made. It is the best way to start the day. Great post!

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